OPENING PANDORA'S BOX

  BEING AROUND ABUSERS AND BULLIES                 I’ve noticed that Keith is okay with abusers and it’s obvious. Most of the people he associates with are abusive or bullies. Perhaps the reason why he hates me so much and targets me is because I’m not like him or his friends.                 I don’t usually judge people by who they are in a relationship with, who they associate with or who they are related to. I’ve been associated with plenty of family and friends who have been dodgy and toxic so I can’t talk.                 But sometimes who someone hangs out with is a red flag. Keith and Sharon spent years putting me down. Many of the toxic people I’ve had in my life are no longer a fixture in my life and as I’ve matured I have grown enough common s...

  BLACK SHEEP                 There are black sheep and I’m one of them.                 There’s definitely some kind of class division or a hierarchy where some people think they are better than others. I don’t know what this is based on. But the truth is that it’s based entirely on who the biggest wankers are in the room. There are class groups, it’s like being on the Titanic. There are the narcissists who look down on others, then the group in the middle who aren’t in but not out either, and then there’s the ones of the bottom, the scum.                 The wankers and bitches seem to think they are better than everyone else and just sit around making snide comments about people, even when someone is right in front of them they will make snobby a...

  ANXIETY I feel I suffer a lot of anxiety due to past experiences. When I write ‘triggers’, I mean flashbacks of something negative that has happened to me in my life. What triggers me the most is when someone mentions an incident which had occurred to me or the person’s name [the perpetrator]. I usually have bad anxiety if I know someone who has done wrong to me will be (or could be) at a particular location. I react by not wanting to be there or I try to get away from that location as soon as possible. I don’t like people who are nasty towards someone for no particular reason. They target one particular person. Toxic people who throw questions at someone and even though the victim answers the questions they won’t listen to the replies. If they did listen, they refuse to acknowledge or care about the response. They then start to verbally attack their target aggressively and when the target stands up for themselves and then the toxic individuals make out that their target is t...

  ABUSE IS THE FAULT OF THE ABUSER                 Sharon is my friend and Keith is her long-term boyfriend.                 Keith has a sister, she gets along with Keith but she has never warmed to Sharon. She doesn’t like Sharon at all and she also doesn’t like me (I don’t know why). I don’t know Keith’s sister at all and I rarely see her and even when we go out she isn’t usually around. There are times when she is nice to Sharon such as on Sharon’s birthday but even on Sharon’s birthday it’s obvious she hates Sharon. I don’t know Keith’s sister but Sharon told me she is a bitch.                   Keith’s sister had this boyfriend (now ex-boyfriend) and she was with him for years. I only met him once and had little to do with him. He attended ...